I think I have a serious problem. I just don’t give a fuck about anything. I don’t have passion for anything. Ever since I stopped playing baseball there has been no foundation for me to immerse myself in and actually work for something. I think it’s affecting my grades and I don’t have the drive to do better. If I get a bad grade. Fuck. Oh well and I move on without giving it a second thought. I thought after last year I would get the motivation to do something but I can’t grasp it. I don’t even like parties anymore. I just want to stay home and literally do nothing. This past sunday I didn’t get out of bed unless it was to eat and honestly it was one of the best days I’ve had in a while. No distractions. No worries. Hours past by like minutes and I was happy. I don’t want to be in the real world. Just mine. FUCK.